Your Royal Worth
“Remember for just one minute of the day, it would be best to look upon yourself as God does, for She knows your royal nature” Hafiz
Often we feel disconnected from our royal nature. It feels vulnerable to admit and to face directly the sense of worthlessness. Most people experience this ache but rarely do they speak it out loud. We pretend with others that we don’t experience the lack of it, the shroud of shame covers our ache. What’s wrong with me that I feel this agonizing lack of worth that plays out in my life? We may go on a self-improvement rampage, yet this stinger remains. Self-improvement is ok, but it doesn’t heal the pain of disconnect. This deep human wound needs to be tended to with care and help. You cannot skip over it nor transcend it with some spiritual mombo jumbo, or else you will always feel tied to the worthless chain.
And when you dare to follow the pain all the way, you discover that in this disconnect is also a healthy longing to feel whole – a calling that leads us back to our innate royal nature, where worth is not even a question. Not a worth we affirm or achieve by good and right deeds, for it cannot be made. This diamond is already shining at the bottom, below the pile of stuff that we heaped upon it.
Yet our humanness remains imperfect, feels flawed, broken maybe. If I fix it I will feel worthy is the relentless drive of mind…But more misery piles up inside. Our worth is not diminished by our mistakes and handicaps, nor can it be increased by doing one more important thing. It is already here. Always shining through the pile of conditioning and human wounds. Linger for a while with that. What do you experience? Truth liberates…take a sip.
Here are simple practices if you like to drink more:
~ “What would it feel like if I knew I am worthy?” Or, “how would it feel like if I walk at this moment as if I am worthy?” Use this as an open inquiry, which means to discover curiously moment to moment anew.
~ Turn to the one in you who feels unworthy. Do not try to change that one, or else you make things only worse. Tend and treat that one like a loving mother, a father who sees and knows the worth in the worthless one. For this best listen to the meditation attached below.
~ Remember when you meet others that most people grapple with the sense of unworthiness. As you become more tenderized toward that in yourself, allow compassion to flow into your relating.
And c’moi if you haven’t tried it, ride in the royal coach from time to time:)